Somewhere Only We Know
After two years at the-company-I'm-not-allowed-to-blog-about, I decided for reasons-I'm-not-allowed-to-blog-about to leave.
At first, I thought about leaving, and I felt liberated. Then I applied for a job, and I felt a twinge of guilt. Then I got an interview, and I felt like a cheat. Then I got an offer, and it was bittersweet. Then I handed in my notice, and I felt sick.
The support I've received from everyone has been amazing, despite my feeling like I've stabbed them all in the back. All kinds of promises of keeping in touch have been made, when I'm sure both sides know time won't be found. I'll miss them all.
Together, we wrote the best software-in-our-industry in the country, and we have the awards to prove it. Our senses of humour were perfectly synchronised. Sure, we had the bad times too, and too many afternoons taken off to work off anger, but that's only because we all cared so much about the product.
I think I'm only just now realising that I may never work for another company with that kind of atmosphere.
Fucking hell.
BUT NOW, WHAT? TO THE FUTURE? OKAY NOW!
I've double-checked my new contract, and I don't see any clauses banning me from saying I'll be starting at Twofour Digital next month.
EXCITED YES, BUT ALSO QUITE TIRED RIGHT NOW, SO GOODNIGHT.
At first, I thought about leaving, and I felt liberated. Then I applied for a job, and I felt a twinge of guilt. Then I got an interview, and I felt like a cheat. Then I got an offer, and it was bittersweet. Then I handed in my notice, and I felt sick.
The support I've received from everyone has been amazing, despite my feeling like I've stabbed them all in the back. All kinds of promises of keeping in touch have been made, when I'm sure both sides know time won't be found. I'll miss them all.
Together, we wrote the best software-in-our-industry in the country, and we have the awards to prove it. Our senses of humour were perfectly synchronised. Sure, we had the bad times too, and too many afternoons taken off to work off anger, but that's only because we all cared so much about the product.
I think I'm only just now realising that I may never work for another company with that kind of atmosphere.
Fucking hell.
BUT NOW, WHAT? TO THE FUTURE? OKAY NOW!
I've double-checked my new contract, and I don't see any clauses banning me from saying I'll be starting at Twofour Digital next month.
EXCITED YES, BUT ALSO QUITE TIRED RIGHT NOW, SO GOODNIGHT.
Labels: employment, leaving my friends, moving forward
1 Comments:
Jon,
Cool beans on getting the new position!
It's never easy to leave a company, no matter how bad things were (or how good). We're programming to feel guilty about letting people down. I don't know how to deal with these feelings either.
But I do know that I've been on an interview recently and am waiting to hear back. If I am offered the position, I have to seriously think about my life, career, and position in the world.
Anyway - I babble... good luck and have fun with it!
Rifka (rifkafox@livejournal.com)
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